Living with Wholeness
A Divine Alchemist is the individual who has excited and amplified these deep patterns of Wholeness, of Oneness, of all Humanity, and is living them. We spent a lot of time talking about how we define ourselves in terms of circumstance. So much of our time is spent on the outside world trying to create, trying to manipulate and control circumstances, so that we can be who we think we are and who we want to be. And this works both with positive self-expression and negative self-expression. When you have free-floating anxiety in the middle of the night, when you wake up in the morning, you’re ready to assemble the circumstances of your life in such a way as to show you a good reason for that anxiety.
If I start thinking of life as an inimical universe, then the universe is going to have a tendency to match that. That’s really a good reason not to go that way.
One doesn’t want to be frightened. One wants to see the effect. In essence, that’s what you’re saying. It’s kind of dramatic when we begin to see that my world is following the same confusion, the same multiplicity of conflicting motivations that are going on inside of me. And so, yes, the first thing is to really see what you’re doing. To say, “Hmm, this is what I’m doing: I am creating a world that pushes me into a polarity of positive or negative,” and I even rationalize it and say it gives me a clear choice.
The difficulty is that if the clarity of your choice is associated with circumstances outside of you, that means it’s not coming from within you. And what we’ve done as we advance with the Deity Yoga Practice that we’ve outlined and begun to experiment with, is that we are seeing how we can create the filtering or the organizing process, the organizing structure that occurs in us, that doesn’t bind us. And we can do this by opening up to the Deity that we’ve begun to create this relationship with.
It’s amazing how just recognizing a pattern, just seeing it, is part of one’s liberation; or as you would say, having the choice, just knowing and seeing it seems to really help one’s evolution. It’s always surprised me how true that is.
Yogi Sean is the student of Swami Ramananda and the author of Dancing in the Fire of Transformation, The Everyday Sanyasin, and Experiments in Awareness, a workbook for yogis.